Every one feels the power of an idea. some are obsessed, some are consumed and others are terrified by it.

The idea of becoming more than you are is what weighs on my mind. its looming constantly over me, an endless full moon winter. i have a feeling of insomnia and anxiety, even though i am well rested and focused.

Ten years my winter has lasted thus far. forever waiting for the sun to rise on a new day.

-M

There are moments when people find themselves overcome by intense feelings. New love, marriage, new jobs school, new borns, public speaking, and most all first times. I happen to find myself in small number of men, that are ruled by emotion, that isn’t between the age of thirteen and twenty one.

I am completely at mercy to my own feelings, and I don’t really mind it. I’m not “emo” I don’t cry every five seconds or try to kill myself but I do let my self run with it.

This is all stemming from a feeling of being inadequate in the music industry. It’s not only a passion but a way of life for me. I’ve been playing and writing for years now and, I feel that haven’t done enough to get my shit together. I need push, but lately I’ve been on the down side of the hill.

Along my way, I have only met horrible people who think only of what I can do for them. Everyone looks out for themselves I understand that, but there has to be another damn person who cares enough to help. I try to help others but I’m getting over it.

I’m just frustrated and venting. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

-M

It’s become very obvious to me as of late that the music industry is in the midst of an identity crisis. It has become flooded with bands who are willing to sacrifice creativity and love to be “trendy” or “tough”. For us in the quote “Scene”, we find our selves mixed in with the likes of traders and cutthroats. No longer is this a community used to come together and enjoy a show or make new friends. Its used as a popularity contest. Aside from social networks and mainstream media, The only real way for a band to become well known and liked is the old fashioned way. By playing in front of people who may or may not like there music. They have to put themselves out there and weather the storm.

My band for instance; we do not pimp ourselves on these media networks. Our Friends list, comments, play counts. These things have nothing to do with how we write or play as a band. Recently we have played many different shows with many different styles of bands, and we have enjoyed sharing the stage with most every one of them but, we cannot and will not be classified as one specific genre as we refuse to do so ourselves. We play with bands that we are much “tougher” than; indie bands who belong on the Twilight soundtrack. Then, there on the opposite side are the so called “screamo” bands who are really hardcore/metal bands who sing, but are not quite good enough to play with the big boys.

There are plenty of musicians such as us that struggle with the fans of these trendy bands, who are unwilling to take a chance and show there true colors. To take a stand and not have guilty pleasures. These are the fans who are walking out of an indie show the second something sounds to edgy or doesn’t have a coffee shop positive liberal message, or the people who walk out and start mocking a band because a band screams sings but refuses to use a breakdown every thirty seconds.

We are one of many stuck in the middle of a war. We are not Brutal, we are not Coffee shop. We are the door way to a realization that can be who ever you want to be, regardless of what other people say. Music is direct self expression of an artist. It also allows individuals/listeners to express them selves with out having to use there own voice. It gives us something to sing for, to chant for, to get behind and believe in.

As some one who grew up scene, i feel i have the right to say “we are in a state of emergency”

-MarcusLust